back from work.

hmm my feb schedule still not out.

sians.

are we having any renuion dinner this yr?

seems like no one starting the ball rolling.

later i plan le last min give excuses and less den 50% of the ppl turn up.

its like wasting my effort planning.

heart pain de leh.

once again to plan a gathering is not a easy job.

hais.

see my mood lah.

wana plan or not.

but if i nv plan.

when are we going to meet up again?

till one day dont care abt each other?

eventually forget one another?

hais hais hais.

i really wat to do le lah.

the more i think.

the more my heart feel hurt.

can someone pls advice?

if i were to ask u 'wat do u see urself in 3yrs time?'

wat ur ans will be?

im being asked this qns by my business consultant.

i crapped one big round with her.

but actually i dont really understand wat the hell im trying to say.

im like a person with no goals in my life.

i dunno wat i wana do in the future.

and of coz i dunno wat will i be doing in the future.

am i going to continue to persue my dream?

i want to.

but im scared of failure again.

how many yrs can i try?

1yr?

2 yrs?

5yrs?

or 10yrs?

arghh.

forget it.

i will stay watever im now.

hais.

im really afraid to think far.

i just hope tat everyday have a better tmr.

im satisfied.